been thinking some more...
so, once again, i've been thinking again. it's slightly related to the last post, but focuses more on the future. i'm trying to think of what i want to do after undergrad is done and over with... which will be in like... MAY! how freaking great is that!?!?! here's a hint....... it's awesome! but yeah, what to do after undergrad is still a topic that is ever changing. it went from "i wanna go to UMB for social work" to "i wanna go somewhere in western maryland for sociology" to "penn state has a great sociology program, but it's outta state and 3 hours from home" to "what if i moved to PA long enough for in-state tuition, then went to Penn State. that way, i could have a break, but still plan on going...". that last one has me really thinking. i know jason and i are both fed up with this city life crap and we're ready to pack our bags. sure, i'll miss the people i've met here, i'll miss some things being so close, and i'll miss my gym. BUT, i miss wide open spaces, farms, decent people, and simplicty even more. but enough about all that, i'd just be repeating things from my last post...
i've been flipping through my music and remembering some really good songs that i like that i haven't listened to in awhile. like, "another lonely day" by ben harper. he has such a soothing voice. and cold play's "til kingdom come" that's a great song too! i dunno... i hear so much crap at work, it's nice to come home to good music:)
in other news... i've been reading a lot lately. i read a lot at work actually. hehehe. i read like 30 pages at work the other day, and i plan to do the same tomorrow:) i've been reading "the mists of avalon" which is the king arthur story, but through the eyes of the women who were involved. so yeah... it's really good. it's like a 900 page book (that's comprised of 4 books really)... and i'm onl ike 350 or something. i dunno, it's nice to have a nice long book to read. i think i'll read something a little lighter next though b/c of school and all. i can hardly read anything when i'm going to school, but i'll have some hours at work where i can read:)
so yeah... my financial strain has been getting better now that i have a job. too bad that when school starts up, i'll be working only a few hours a week:( maybe i'll talk to dan (my manager) to see if i can pick up a few more hours or something. i dunno. i know that the school work will be enough to keep me busy, but i dunno how my bank account is going to like it. meh. i might still get that loan so i can have my "safety blanket" amount back. we'll see. i know jason is all "your job is school" and all... but i feel like i'm failing him by not helping out as much as i could've been. i shouldn't have waited for stupid borders for my job back. i should've applied earlier and all. but i guess if i would've done that, i wouldn't have had time to join my gym (which i love...) and get a job there. ::shrug:: i dunno... i guess that i'll be able to help more now that i have SOME sort of income. it's not great... but it's something.
speaking of my gym, i've been working out a lot and i've been seeing more and more results. it may not show up on the scale yet, but my pants fit differently, and i've been able to wear my favorite pair of cordaroys that i haven't been able to wear in MONTHS (or so) recently! too bad that like a week after finding out i fit in them again, a weared spot in the crotch starts to rip b/c well... that's what cords do. they wear down and rip. meh, i'll try to fix them sometime. in the mean time, i'm gonna keep up the working out and all and hopefully fit into more and more of my pants. my jeans are too tight for me now:( i mean, i can zip them up, but i can't sit comfortably in them. i wouldn't wanna wear them out or anything. BUT, on the up side... i've droped one pant size (i think) since i've started working out. i bought a pair of kakkis at target for work when i got hired (b/c none of my old ones fitted at the time).... and i just went to wal-mart the other day and bought a pair of jeans that are one size smaller, and comfy:) SOOO, that's great! it's still one size larger than what i was this time last year... but.... in time, i'll be back down to that... and then i'll be on my way back to what i was in high school!!! i think that's my goal. get back to what i was in high school... ideally, freshman year of high school size... but for right now, i'm just happy that i'm a size smaller than a month or so ago! i'm hopeing that this surgery in the winter will help me be able to exersize even more and actually... it will reduce my breast size and how much i weigh b/c my boobs are heavy! hahaha... maybe tmi, but who reads this anyways!?
well, i'm gonna go read and wait for jason to get home. i'll write more later i'm sure. peace.
i've been flipping through my music and remembering some really good songs that i like that i haven't listened to in awhile. like, "another lonely day" by ben harper. he has such a soothing voice. and cold play's "til kingdom come" that's a great song too! i dunno... i hear so much crap at work, it's nice to come home to good music:)
in other news... i've been reading a lot lately. i read a lot at work actually. hehehe. i read like 30 pages at work the other day, and i plan to do the same tomorrow:) i've been reading "the mists of avalon" which is the king arthur story, but through the eyes of the women who were involved. so yeah... it's really good. it's like a 900 page book (that's comprised of 4 books really)... and i'm onl ike 350 or something. i dunno, it's nice to have a nice long book to read. i think i'll read something a little lighter next though b/c of school and all. i can hardly read anything when i'm going to school, but i'll have some hours at work where i can read:)
so yeah... my financial strain has been getting better now that i have a job. too bad that when school starts up, i'll be working only a few hours a week:( maybe i'll talk to dan (my manager) to see if i can pick up a few more hours or something. i dunno. i know that the school work will be enough to keep me busy, but i dunno how my bank account is going to like it. meh. i might still get that loan so i can have my "safety blanket" amount back. we'll see. i know jason is all "your job is school" and all... but i feel like i'm failing him by not helping out as much as i could've been. i shouldn't have waited for stupid borders for my job back. i should've applied earlier and all. but i guess if i would've done that, i wouldn't have had time to join my gym (which i love...) and get a job there. ::shrug:: i dunno... i guess that i'll be able to help more now that i have SOME sort of income. it's not great... but it's something.
speaking of my gym, i've been working out a lot and i've been seeing more and more results. it may not show up on the scale yet, but my pants fit differently, and i've been able to wear my favorite pair of cordaroys that i haven't been able to wear in MONTHS (or so) recently! too bad that like a week after finding out i fit in them again, a weared spot in the crotch starts to rip b/c well... that's what cords do. they wear down and rip. meh, i'll try to fix them sometime. in the mean time, i'm gonna keep up the working out and all and hopefully fit into more and more of my pants. my jeans are too tight for me now:( i mean, i can zip them up, but i can't sit comfortably in them. i wouldn't wanna wear them out or anything. BUT, on the up side... i've droped one pant size (i think) since i've started working out. i bought a pair of kakkis at target for work when i got hired (b/c none of my old ones fitted at the time).... and i just went to wal-mart the other day and bought a pair of jeans that are one size smaller, and comfy:) SOOO, that's great! it's still one size larger than what i was this time last year... but.... in time, i'll be back down to that... and then i'll be on my way back to what i was in high school!!! i think that's my goal. get back to what i was in high school... ideally, freshman year of high school size... but for right now, i'm just happy that i'm a size smaller than a month or so ago! i'm hopeing that this surgery in the winter will help me be able to exersize even more and actually... it will reduce my breast size and how much i weigh b/c my boobs are heavy! hahaha... maybe tmi, but who reads this anyways!?
well, i'm gonna go read and wait for jason to get home. i'll write more later i'm sure. peace.
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