a lot on my mind...

i have a lot on my mind right now, and it's starting to become too much. i think one more big change to my world will just about break me. i want to just break down and cry, but then i say to myself "no, this isn't anything to cry over..." but then again, i still think it is. sometimes i just feel like i can't breath, and that in the end, no matter what i do, it's all gonna fall apart. it's like i'm trying to hold sand. i hate this feeling b/c i know there's nothing i can do. i don't really know what to do though until the issue is over. i'm gonna have to change my train of thought about a few things, and i dunno how i'm gonna be able to do that. i look back on the last couple of weeks and i feel like i should've seen it. i should've known... i should've been there and done something earlier. i dunno what to do. i just have a lot on my mind...